Let It Be and Know that I am God

IMG_0891Paul McCartney has begun his 2009 US tour.  I saw him on his tour here in 2005–the $750 seats were a gift I gave to my child within.  Or, the absolutely crazy Beatlemaniacal teenage girl within.  I was 12 when I first heard of the Beatles.  “I Want to Hold Your Hand” was playing on the radio as my friend’s mother drove us to school.  “That’s the Beatles,” my friend Joannie said.  “Who are the Beatles?” I asked.  She looked at me as if I had just asked her who President Kennedy was.  “You’ve NEVER heard of THE BEATLES???”  she asked.  She did have an advantage over me.  She had four older, very cool, sisters from whom she learned everything you needed to know to be as cool as they were.  They knew everything in that department, as far as I could tell.

In any case, I’m happy that I recall the very moment I heard their name, and their sound, because nothing was the same for me after that.  

My fave Beatle was Paul, and my fave Paul song became “Let it Be.”  Still is.  I still find such solace in the message and the music, with the title mantra encouraging us to not worry.  It will all work out.  So says someone from beyond who reassures us gently.  

Coincidentally, I was thinking of the topic of simply “being” for my blog post this week, and then I recalled that Paul McCartney was probably singing the perfect theme song for a post like this somewhere that very night to a sell-out crowd.  

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I ordered a book this week from Amazon by the famed contemplative, Bernadette Roberts.  Her books on the path to no-self are classic, and I was very interested in what she had to say.  When the book arrived, I opened it, and thought to myself, “Oh, heck, this book is filled with WORDS!”  As if I expected anything different.    And it really wasn’t a thought at all, it was a feeling that while I was drawn to the idea of moving towards unity with God and ultimately the experience of no-self, just words weren’t going to get me there.

I’m looking to learn, and hopefully to grow, but suddenly I’m tired of the traditional ways of learning.  Analyzing, synthesizing, rationalizing, justifying… been there done that.  What should I do now?  

What I feel compelled to do is to just be still and listen.  Be still and let go.   Let it all just be.  After reading the likes of Thomas Merton and Thomas Aquinas, St. Theresa of Avila and St. Theresa of Lisieux,  Richard Foster and Richard Rohr, to use Bernadette Roberts’ phrase, I’ve grown weary of learning “above the neck.”  Now I feel a need for my learning to be “below the neck.”    There will be an answer.  Let it be.

My pastor had a really interesting way to close a sermon on the Biblical injunction, Be still and know that I am God (Psalm 46:10), and I use it frequently in meditation.  It goes like this:

Be still and know that I am God.

Be still and know that I am.

Be still and know.

Be still.

Be.

Enough said.

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